AN Empty RED BLACK HEART

Everyday of my life, i have been have a lot of fun. We as a kids or teen like to play games, When we grow up we start to get angry easy by hurting our feeling. Some of us are very sensitive. One moment they will be angry, sad, happy,moody and etc. Having 2 life wasn't easy as i thought so. When i was born i thought my life will b happy and fun which GOD has plan for us. When i found out that i didn't not have a great life. One part of my life was to be friendly, kind, happy and all the positive type and the other part of my life want to punch people and all the Negative part. My parent has been fighting for years, And we wish that our parent was together and not fighting. Every time i wake up i think i will have a good and happy life. No one could understand how you feel but only one particular person does and that is GOD. Everyone that i know or met me think that i had a happy and excited family. But you are wrong. About 10 years my families has been not that perfect as i think it is . Every time my parent start fighting i feel like punching the wall till hand start bleeding. Friend that i have thinks that  i had a great life then them but wrong, me smile at outside but not inside. If someone start to make me angry and i can tell you that i have " NO MERCY" to you. My friends always ask me why i very easy forgive people but i didn't. I  will still remember all the comment, memories and the bad comments is still in me

When we were born and we do not know which gender are we until we were few month in our mothers womb. God have created us like him, Smart, handsome,pretty, and etc. When we grow up we start to learn how to walk, talk, run, and fun. As we grow up we also start to learn a lot of different thing. When time comes we start to follow the generation style and following the negative people and not the positive people. Teenager these days have change a  lot in their character and personality. One by one teenager start to follow their friend or with the cool friends. Some time teenagers gets bully  till at one point they could not take it  and they SUICIDE. Example prostitutes, drugs, smoking, sex and etc. And this is how the teenagers get to release stress. I also start to smoke since age 12 till age 14. This experience wasn't a very good ones, after a few days i felt sick.

Some One You Love

Some one you love have been loving you like a brother but you have been trying to get her as your girlfriend. The differences between you and her are 3years plus. You have accepted her as a younger sister but you have using it in the wrong way. She want you to teach her, advice her the dangerous thing around the world. Just try to be a big brother for once and do what is write and not wrong. You can protect her but not to protected as in always asking her where she goes and etc. U don't need to cover her up with so many protective gear, maybe 25% cover protective gear and another 75% she can have her freedom. You also can teach her some basic martial art to protect herself when you are not there to protect her. You also don't need to ask around everyone who is her boyfriend or check boyfriend's background. If she find out something fishy about the boyfriend that your she doesn't know, just tell her the truth about everything and also just say that u love her very much as your big brother and doesn't like you to get hurt. Maybe she will forgive you.  

Happy Memories

One day there was a boy name Alan Ee. He is a good boy, smart, handsome and intelligent. he goes to SMK Johor School. Every weekdays he goes to school to study different subject and different knowledge. He was a champion in sport badminton and also in girls heart. Almost all the girls in SMK Johor School likes Alan as he is also the most popular  student but there one girl that he did not get. That girl is the most beautiful girl just like Alan but he is handsome. Alan had tried many time to impress this girl with different tactics that he knows of. This young and beautiful girl name Ennqi.
Now alan tries to get her handphone number and also try to get ennqi. On the next day, the headmaster told a few teacher to choose 2 student to go for a talent show. The teachers has already choose the 2 student and they are Alan and Ennqi. One of the teacher went to their class and call them out to see the teacher. When they heard that they have to go prom together, they were shock.

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Happy, Sad , and Repeat

There is a young man name Edwin Su Zhi Kang, he is a very good player in badminton. Every time Edwin like to take selfie. When Edwin and his friends goes to college, all of us like to call his nickname “SELFIE KING”. Edwin also goes to taekwondo and his is a black belt student. After a few days of college, he saw the most beautiful, prettiest and hottest girl in the world which it is his eyes. The first time Edwin saw the new girl name Cynthia Soon May Chee and his face turn red in colour. When he meet the new girl his heart was pumping outwards and inwards. From that moment onwards Edwin has been trying to win Cynthia’s hearts but there was an interruption by Jun Hao. Jun Hao is Edwin’s friend.  After a few months of trying to win Cynthia’s heart, Edwin has finally got the connection to the point or target whereby Edwin ask Cynthia…….. Would like to be my boyfriend and I will give you some time to think about it. Edwin have been waiting Cynthia’s answer after so long, Cynthia ask Edwin to meet her in a room as Edwin’s friends waited outside for the answer.   After an hour later, Edwin came out and start pulling up his pants zip and putting properly his belt and also with a big smile on his face.

After a few month later they have been very happy and getting together very closely. Edwin have been bringing Cynthia to a 5 Star Hotel for a date and sometime go out watching movie. Every day both of them always sent SMS without fail. One day when Cynthia call Edwin and Edwin didn’t pick up the phone but it was another girl who pick up the phone. As Cynthia didn’t ask who was it but she hear something from the background that sound like her boyfriend………..  (To be continue)

Just imagine that you have very good friend, that they have ask you to be their step brother/sister.You want to spend time with them as much as you want with them but the is an  whereby u and them are in year in school time. The obstacle that i will take to see them as much as i have, with the advantage of having the rank of monitor and chairman of scout just to see them. On that year i have many ridicule from all of my friend that they were my girlfriend. Sometime when i got a job to do i will call one of them or both to have the experience to handle the situation where u need to let the other student in that class to now. Or where they want to see their beloved crush, lover or likes, then i will grant their wishes as best as possible. Whenever we want to meet each other with any problem that we will try our best to meet up. When the school has organize an camp with the different uniform in our school. So we also join the camp with some of our friends. The only ways for the parents to allow them to go for this camp organize by the school is by i will be going and together take care each other.On the second night the coaches at the camp ask us to go for a night walk with the agreement from the teacher. The coaches start the night walk with solo night walk, slowly everyone started to get fear in night walk. But i am brave enough to do this, in me there is still fear. Still i have to overcome this fear in this walk of life i had. Both of the stepsister that i had started to had the fear in them. In the end they have overcome their fear themselves and the person up the sky help to them the light(MOON).
     Sometimes we may have done something wrong without our notice but to others is something that they don't like. On the last day of the camp i maybe had done something wrong. After the days that i would like to talk to her, shes wasn't replying my messages. When i found out from another stepsister whom is very close to her, she said that i have make her feel uncomfortable. After she accept my apologies but she gave 2 condition that i need to accept. 1. I must not be over protective over her  and 2nd is that she is not anymore my stepsister which break the relation as my best sister. After a few months i try my best to take care that have been ask by their parent and reporting their behavior in school.

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When we are in relationship or not, we will different kind of challenges ahead with difficulty. Sometimes the bond of our relationship together is easy to break but it is difficult to bond it back as one. Difficulty is that both gender do not approve each other. The difficulty and bring to ANGER or DEATH. These two word or common use for both gender if they wish to live together as one and never let each other go. Sometimes the bond of relationship can be break within themselves. Example a fight with any small matter,  he/she have cheated on u with another person, maybe ur boyfriend got in to drug addiction nor criminal cases and etc.

Life

Why u all treats me like a bullshit, did i do something wrong to u that u want to hit me right at the face. IF it is that so do it and then just tell me that all. u don't have to giving face like don't want me as ur friend. U also don't have to tell the world whole that i have did something bad abt u. All ur secret that u told me to keep, and i did as u said. Last time we were very happy together like brother and sister, when is ur birthday i gave present that u want, but now u do me like a shit, u want to throw me in to the trash bin and burn me alive

THE TRUE ME

Life being me wasn't that fun, some time we may have trouble that we need to face. Maybe this time I shall tell u the true me or should I say my other of me.
The other me have a very strong anger in him. Some time he will start to take over the positive me. You didn't see it but u can listen the way I talk.  Since 3 years ago I have feel I like I have the second of me( negative).So I have call my self Protect and Destroyer. From that day I have the change my mind that I need to  Protect the people that I love and Destroy the people that disturb, harm, or etc. Till now I have to keep my self positive and never change my self to be negative of me(negative). When I was hurt I will try to keep in me and always remember what did I do wrong and try to make my own reality in my mind and reply the whole situation. From that problem I can change myself and never do the same problem again. When I was in college for my class, I was cool after the class my friend told me that u are F***King the Chair. At that moment my negative part of me have try to take over me and started to react by kicking the amount of 25% power right below the knee. I am the Two face Person. My anger always increase if I don't think abt my past. Every time I see that person my anger will increases. Now and forever I try to cool down myself and trying not to release my anger by fighting and I am also looking for Psychologies

Life to be ME

I PanjangNTE, who was born in Malaysia. The most beautiful country to stay at. Sometime my country could face the problem but the problem can be solve having a conversation properly. We should ask some question that is relevant not the left or right question. This story now is talking abt me, my life and how i have to overcome to anger in me. Since i was 5 years old, i always  like to watch WWE SHOW. Sometime me and my grandma watching the fighting show(WWE), i will start  fighting to my grandma but wasn't so hard. Until i got hit my parent because of fighting to my grandma. After a few years,of discipline and self-control, i able to control my emotion.

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