AN Empty RED BLACK HEART

Everyday of my life, i have been have a lot of fun. We as a kids or teen like to play games, When we grow up we start to get angry easy by hurting our feeling. Some of us are very sensitive. One moment they will be angry, sad, happy,moody and etc. Having 2 life wasn't easy as i thought so. When i was born i thought my life will b happy and fun which GOD has plan for us. When i found out that i didn't not have a great life. One part of my life was to be friendly, kind, happy and all the positive type and the other part of my life want to punch people and all the Negative part. My parent has been fighting for years, And we wish that our parent was together and not fighting. Every time i wake up i think i will have a good and happy life. No one could understand how you feel but only one particular person does and that is GOD. Everyone that i know or met me think that i had a happy and excited family. But you are wrong. About 10 years my families has been not that perfect as i think it is . Every time my parent start fighting i feel like punching the wall till hand start bleeding. Friend that i have thinks that  i had a great life then them but wrong, me smile at outside but not inside. If someone start to make me angry and i can tell you that i have " NO MERCY" to you. My friends always ask me why i very easy forgive people but i didn't. I  will still remember all the comment, memories and the bad comments is still in me

When we were born and we do not know which gender are we until we were few month in our mothers womb. God have created us like him, Smart, handsome,pretty, and etc. When we grow up we start to learn how to walk, talk, run, and fun. As we grow up we also start to learn a lot of different thing. When time comes we start to follow the generation style and following the negative people and not the positive people. Teenager these days have change a  lot in their character and personality. One by one teenager start to follow their friend or with the cool friends. Some time teenagers gets bully  till at one point they could not take it  and they SUICIDE. Example prostitutes, drugs, smoking, sex and etc. And this is how the teenagers get to release stress. I also start to smoke since age 12 till age 14. This experience wasn't a very good ones, after a few days i felt sick.