Reality

I met this wonderful girl. She is and now still very beautiful to me. For some people thinks that she is using me. And I ask myself us she really doing that to me or false. So I continue play with the game of control. As time goes on I try my best to be her brother( from another mother). Slowly we start to understand and help each other I our daily life. Maybe sometimes I will start talking things which are "Yellow" "Blue" minded and some times could be disgusting, all this are only for knowledge. As for me now I am still undergoing anger management. At time I could be bursting with anger which difficult to control

Life wishes to happen

Every one whiches that they  can get a better life than other, but it never happen to them. When they wishes ot to happen but it didn't not happen, when they don't want it to happen but it happen is some thing like fatal sickness that we do not wish to have. People always ask why does this bad things happen to me and this moment of my life. Why? The answer is GOD PLAN... or when there is bad there is good. These is our life that GOD has plan for us.
      Life to me is like nothing much is just fun, anger and jealousy and many more. Most of my cousins has what want and wishes to have. They are able to lift happily ever after. As for me living as two personality and stressful live.  Maybe my life is surpose to lift, enjoy and suffer. 
     My relative members are happy as a dolphin and yes they may have ups and downs in their life.        
  Some time our life needed a balance and balance life and emotion are good as they keep us motivated.  In three more days or so, will be my last day of freedom as my parent are coming back from their holiday.

The Near Death

On 22/2/2015 was i perfect day to have a movies and some fun activities. Early in the morning i got up from bed and start my day with a cup of milk and start work out, 10 push up and 2 KM run. When i about to arrive home from my 2km run, without knowing i got stab from the back, the robbery took my money and my Ipod. I was lucky to have my second phone in my shoe, I pull myself to the side and get my phone to call the ambulance but i couldn't press the number properly. I was loosing a lot of blood, Slowly my breath reduces, my visual get blurry at that time i start to pray to GOD to get some one to help. As GOD has answer my request, a kind man came to my rescued and help to call the ambulance. As we waited for the ambulance to came, the kind man help me to stop the bleeding and he is also a part time paramedic. He tried to wake me up and told me that the ambulance has arrive to rescued me to hospital.

As time passes by, my thought were just thinking about my own death. As i reflect back my pass, the every moment i had with my family and friends that had care about me. At that moment i thought i had no hope to see my family and friends any more. Right at that perfect timing i got a hard electric pump to my lungs. Suddenly i open my eyes slightly and saw doctors around me and start calling my name. They told me that i have lose a lot of blood and they are about to start the surgery on my back. My parent has been notified and they rush to the hospital with sadness and crying. After a few hours the doctor came out from the surgery room, my parent ran to the doctor and he said that the operation has gone perfectly since i have lose a lot of blood i enter to coma. My parent had a smile that i am just find but now is just time for me to get recover back from my injury.

As time passes by my friend's parent and relative came to visit me and pray to have a speeding recovery. Everyday and night my family take turns to take care of me and waited for my waken from coma. After 6 month i able to move my finger slightly and my sister rush to call the doctor and my parent for the good new. The doctor said that i am about to get up from  the long sleep. The next day i wake up and saw my family and friend right beside me waiting for the big moment. After a while i get to remember some of my friends name and some i don't as the doctor said that i might lose some memories when i fell down on the ground

The good and bad times

My life wasn't that happy until I met this girl who is quite cute and pretty. For that moment I able to go towards her and ask her name. For the first time I was not nervous to ask a girl’s name. My heart was beating fast. After a few days, I ask her can she be my girlfriend and she say yes. I was so excited to have my first girlfriend. My brain was putting a reminder for ever year on this particular month and it was 6/1/2015. On that day it was my happiest day ever, I feel like shouting out loud but I couldn't. Step by step I am able to hold her hand and then kiss her. Every morning we remind each other what we have to do in the morning when we wake up but not just laying down on the bed like a lazy bum (person). Like all couple will also do send "I LOVE YOU" to our partners.  Sometimes we do fight on certain this that we each other dislike abt it. But we will be together forever.

Every morning, afternoon, evening, night and whenever I am bored I will think abt my girlfriend. In my mind will always ask what were she doing, is she bored, did she sick or not, did I hurt her feelings in anyways and etc. Every day we miss each other, we are able to see and talk on that one day in a week.  Sometimes I do dream abt her during my sleep. Most of the time we chat on Facebook massager, we are able to reach the target of 20,000 messages in just a month. Like all partners we have all the rule for each other so my girlfriend had 5 rules I need to follow.  1 NO OTHER GIRLS, 2 NO ALCOHOL 3 NO SMOKING 4 NO BAD WORD 5 OBEY THE RULES ABOVE.

On the 19/1/2015 was my worst day in the year. I thought I could continue with that person for long but I didn't know what I did wrong.  After that day I have been asking myself what I did wrong, I try to have recall memories on what I have done to     break the relationship with her.  On the next day my whole life was change when I suspected that she has other guy which is younger than her. He is much better than me. My life will be change because of this whole game I was played. I feel like a middle person between the new boyfriend and my ex-girlfriend now my life is just being single and lonely.