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I don't know how to impress girls like others, I do not have the touch of love potion in my speech or my hand. What i do have is my ear for you to release your problem, my mouth to give you advice, my hand to help you to gain that strength to not give up that easily. That innocent girl i have met and know her well. As we have have conversation for a few years. We may have argument and disagreement on thing but i let her win. Without winning her heart is like getting her in your arms. One time i did told her that most boys will do stupid thing just to get the attention of his crush/lover. I think is only me who will say that because i have watch too much dramatic movie. These few month is hard for me as she is sitting a major exam and i could not talk to her, we can talk the hold day and not know what time is it. We Whats App each other from time to time. There was one time  She as me who do i like or who is your crush in ur college or anyone that i like. So i sort of told her a lie that i like someone else and was not dare to tell her that i like her, That time i do not have guts or the balls to tell her or confess.    

The Innocent Girl

She the innocent one who I have feeling for. 

She is the want who change my life around, when I look at her she makes me smile. 

I am not very sure whether did I make her smile. I may look not handsome, clever or anything near to it. 

I feel like she has something special in her. I knew her for few years already. Now I look back at our conversation, I feel stupid to the things I have said to her, the wrong thing that I have done to her and thing are not suppose to do. Now I realised that, I have done too much or many pervert thing to her. I feel very guilty to her whenever I face, I forced myself to put a smile on my face whenever I see her. 

Just last few days I confessed to her I am very in love with her. I told her that, I may not like other boys who have all the good feature. I am more like a person who have a fat tummy, no muscle, and  not looking cool. I know that my time is short as I have dream about my death, it is very complicated to explain. That was y I ignoring her for one day. On that day itself I received a message from her, asking me y am I ignoring her. So I explain to her of what happen. I remember once I was fetch her back home and requested me to bring her to have a late lunch. I brought her to MCD as requested from her, she told me did not have enough of money, I should have brought her in to MCD and treat her. I have make a mistake for not being to have a good lunch. She only bought a vanilla ice cream. There had been so many time that I want to tell her but I do not have the guts or the balls to confessed to her. Every day for the past few years I have be thinking of her day and night. As she has grown taller and taller about to reach my height, I can see that she have grown more matured and still have the innocent look at her face. I think I have expressed enough. As I know she may or may not accept that she is still pretty, beautiful, innocent  smart, caring and many other good things that I can day to her. But not about myself.

She the innocent one who I have feeling for. 

She is the want who change my life around, when I look at her she makes me smile. 

I am not very sure whether did I make her smile. I may look not handsome, clever or anything near to it. 

I feel like she has something special in her. I knew her for few years already. Now I look back at our conversation, I feel stupid to the things I have said to her, the wrong thing that I have done to her and thing are not suppose to do. Now I realised that, I have done too much or many pervert thing to her. I feel very guilty to her whenever I face, I forced myself to put a smile on my face whenever I see her. 

Just last few days I confessed to her I am very in love with her. I told her that, I may not like other boys who have all the good feature. I am more like a person who have a fat tummy, no muscle, and  not looking cool. I know that my time is short as I have dream about my death, it is very complicated to explain. That was y I ignoring her for one day. On that day itself I received a message from her, asking me y am I ignoring her. So I explain to her of what happen. I remember once I was fetch her back home and requested me to bring her to have a late lunch. I brought her to MCD as requested from her, she told me did not have enough of money, I should have brought her in to MCD and treat her. I have make a mistake for not being to have a good lunch. She only bought a vanilla ice cream. There had been so many time that I want to tell her but I do not have the guts or the balls to confessed to her. Every day for the past few years I have be thinking of her day and night. As she has grown taller and taller about to reach my height, I can see that she have grown more matured and still have the innocent look at her face. I think I have expressed enough. As I know she may or may not accept that she is still pretty, beautiful, innocent  smart, caring and many other good things that I can day to her. But not about myself.